I’m a fuckup. I always have been. I’m shit at everything. Even coding, my one labour of love, I’m bad at. I’m not committed, things never get finished. I just give up. I’m lazy. I’m socially anxious. I struggle to make friends and I struggle even more to keep the few that I have. I go places I shouldn’t. I do things I shouldn’t. I’m fucking tired. I just want to be a normal, functional member of society. I want to be someone people like and want to spend time with. But I’m fucking useless and I fucking hate it but I don’t know how to get myself out of it.
Fucking sick of feeling like this
WHY CAN’T I HOLD ALL THESE FEELS